self love intro.

All of us deserve to feel loved.

I’m writing my first blog post at a restaurant, sipping my cute little drink and getting ready to order a po boy. One thing about me -- I love solo dates. They were for sure scary at first, but now I get excited taking myself out and getting to spoil myself.

Granted, it comes in waves --the whole self love thing. Sometimes I truly dislike myself and put myself down in every other sentence. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep wondering why the boy I like doesn’t see my worth or like me enough. Sometimes I beg myself to get out of bed, beg myself to work on my self worth, beg myself to try to love myself.

But other times, I look at myself in the mirror and smile. Sometimes I blast music, throw on a cute outfit and shake my ass in the mirror for fun. Sometimes I’ll go to a coffee shop or restaurant and vibe with myself. Sometimes I’ll journal and cry about everything I’m going through, but sometimes I’ll journal about how much I love myself.

A little secret: my old therapist (and only therapist I’ve had so far) gifted me a self love journal as a parting gift when I moved after college. If that doesn’t tell you how down bad I was, nothing will. My therapist thought I needed that, and I truly did. The amount of times we’ve talked about self love and self confidence and self worth -- I can’t even count.

But my most beautiful memory of self love was during that time of therapy. I saw the work I put in -- the journaling, the listing everything I loved about myself, the numerous books I read on self improvement, the unlearning of constantly bringing myself down, the taking myself to solo dates and solo trips, the being honest with myself that I didn’t want to & was honestly scared of hating myself.

I don’t want anyone to hate or even dislike themselves. It’s a terrible feeling to even have to think about if you love yourself. Maybe that’s why I’m starting this blog. Loving yourself is something that’s looked over so easily but it’s so major. And I want you, my dearest reader, to love yourself & I hope you’re inspired by this blog to take that step toward self love.

- S